Another milestone - more about me, things going on in my life, future improvements and new decisions [WARNING: tl:dr content]

[Ramsy]

1337 posts... The most random milestone one could possibly achieve, but, let's just call it a milestone for the heck of it.

 

Now, before I get into anything, I will admit - I have been post-poning and procrastinating making this post for a few days already, mainly because I'm a lazy fuck, but also because I didn't know whether to do it or just skip it and move on. This is why I haven't been posting anything lately.

 

Now, once you get into this thread, you might think to yourself: "Wait a sec, Elmo recently made a post very similar to this.". Well, that is indeed true, because I wanna cover a similar ground as well.

 

So, how do I even start off? I guess I could say that I am surprised that I made it this far, honestly. Hell, there's been so many things that I and dozens of others have went through in the past years of this community's existence. I have had very memorable moments in this community, some of which some of you "new guys" don't even have a clue about. Some might call it over-doing it, but I'm proud to call myself a veteran in this community, considering how long I've stuck around for. Me and many others have went through so much shit and let so much of it go, that it honestly shocks me. Hell, I'll be surprised if Classixz and some others even have any nerves left from what we've all been through. That, obviously, includes all the stuff that I've done as well, without a doubt. I've made mistakes, but I'm human. I'm gonna keep making mistakes, but I'm not gonna stop trying to fix them.

 

So, let's dig into my history a little bit. Well, I wasn't the most popular kid back when I was younger, and I still am not, but the family and friends that I have that surround me are something that I, honestly, at times, think that I don't even deserve. It's just too good when I think about it. But, I digress. When I was younger, between the ages 9-15, I used to hang out with my younger cousins, Franjo (you can say Fran) and Matej (you can say Matthew). We always played football at one of three football fields that they have in the place they live in, Zdenci. My place is even more difficult to pronounce, but, heck - Duga Međa. Now, as I said, we always played football, but that's not the same anymore. I don't play football anymore, just basketball and some club games (i.e. darts and pool games). We never used to play basketball back then, but I liked it, nontheless. Now, whenever we weren't doing football, we rocked some FIFA and PES 2009 or whatever the heck it was back then, on their PS2, as well as GTA: Liberty City Stories. I remember it so vividly. They didn't have a memory card in the PS2, and they had one of those big-ass CRT-like TVs, was big as shit. So many memories were made there. We just sat for hours and played that shit until our eyes started to hurt. When we weren't on the PS2, we would play random games on my computer, literally everything from GTA III to the games that we even play nowadays at times, although that is on very rare occassions. Franjo is in his 1st grade of med school, and Matej is in the 7th grade of grade school (total of 8 grades in grade school, and then the grades in high school are determined by the course that you take). As I said plenty of times, I myself am in 3rd grade of med school right now, but me and Franjo don't attend school in the same cities (as a matter of fact, our schools are about 250 kilometres apart) and both of us spend more time in school than we do at home. That's why you see me on so much whenever I'm on vacation. I also don't have anyone to hang out with here where I live, as I live in a small village, with a small population (around 100, mostly elderly people).

 

Now, this whole previous paragraph might've looked like a random pile of text with a lot of digression, but it's honestly my childhood in a summarized form. Some might read it and think: "Wow, that's just sad...". And, I ain't gonna lie, it kinda is. I had plenty of friends in grade school, and I have even more now as I got older, but I can't do shit when I'm at home. My parents cannot afford for us to move, let alone buy anything that's of a slightly "higher worth". Heck, my mom works in a food processing company which is so shitty that it would just be better off if it was declared closed, and my dad can't find a steady job in Croatia, so he takes monthly trips to Germany, where he works and then comes home to pay off bills, etc., etc... Heck, we can't even use our one car right now, as we can't afford to pay for an official security and system check or whatever that's called.

 

Only long-time and truly hardcore games will sympathise, but video-games filled my childhood, and they still do that. It's surprising how a pile of moving images on a screen can do so much, but it's those games that got me through a shitload of heavy times. What did I do when my grandfather and grandmother passed? I spent the whole night just talking to some of my best (online) friends. It's unbelievable how just talking to someone you've never even met in your entire life, and might not even meet, how that can have an affect on you. When I was younger, I only had a total of 2 friends that lived in the same area as me, and they were amazing individuals, but we've grown apart now. Different schools, different dreams, different adventures. We moved on. Gaming? That's something that (I hope) will stay in my blood until the day that I am put in the ground.

 

Whoever questions the meaning of online friends is a fool. Trust me, I know from personal experience, if you find the right ones, they mean just as much as the ones who (literally) stand beside you.

 

This crappy $15 (maybe even cheaper) headset is what gave me the opportunity of listening to my friends cry, moan, bitch and dwell, but also share amazing experiences, times, things, etc...

 

Gaming, it's something that ties to me so much more than to your average gamer, and I'm thankful. Many hours were wasted in my bedroom, just sitting around, playing video-games and talking for hours. What do I do when I'm on vacation and cannot afford to go on a trip, or have nobody to visit, or am just bored? Sit in one position 'till around 6 AM in the morning and just play and talk. Call it and over-exaggeration, obsession, whatever you wish, but I have no regrets. Gaming for about 10 years now, hoping for dozens of them to come.

 

But, let's move on. As I said, I am in my 3rd year of med school right now, and my cousin is in his 1st. In Croatia, you go through 5 years of med school and then an additional 6 months of internship. The first 2 years are just theory, while the 3rd and 4th are theory, practice (some basic things that we gotta know, like drawing blood, washing patients, setting patient bunks, etc...) and course practice (taking our practice to the city hospital and actually doing good with patients and our enviroment). The 5th year is internship, but with some aspects that I am not fully introduced to just yet.

 

Now, I'm gonna be fully honest here. Some people may judge, but it's me, so I don't care. The main reason I chose med was because I, over all, wanted a steady job with a high pay and great features, while the 2nd big reason was because I enjoy helping others and hate seeing people in pain. Now, why is the 1st out of 2 my main reason? Because seeing the shit my family went through as I was a kid was my personal worst ever experience, and it gave me countless nightmares about the future and outcomes I didn't wanna think about. I don't ever want my future family to even have an idea of what it was like. So, due to this, another big dream, for me, is to move to a country where it is nowhere nearly as horrific as it is here in Croatia. I keep thinking of the following lands - Germany, Switzerland, Sweden, Finland, Canada and maaaybe somewhere in the States. Good thing is my English, which is something I get to kinda brag about, and my Grammar Nazi attitude that some people might find distasteful, but I prefer it, so I'm sticking to it.

 

Another big thing that ties to my med education is the question that I've been asking myself for the longest time - did I make the right call? Could I have done better? Did I think rationally and reasonably when making this call? Maybe, maybe not, depends on how one sees it, but I'm gonna make the best out of it. It's a promise I made to myself that I'm gonna keep.

 

A lot of people also ask me what my goals are. Here are (literally) some of the goals that I have right now:

 - finish school;

 - find a steady, well payed and fitting job;

 - get a family;

 - grow old and happy.

 

And some of the things that I hope for to happen sooner?:

 - visit my best Internet friends;

 - fill up my Steam account with a specific list of games that I have;

 - upgrade my PC.

 

Whew, that's a lot of text. But, I got more for your eyes. :)=

 

As I said, this whole community is a big deal, as it offers us all great times, as long as we just agree to take them. I have had countless memorable times in this whole community, and I just wanna point out some individuals who I find important to me and say something about them. Yes, I know, everyone does it, but it's something worth making. A lot of people will be missing from this list, but I think people would legit start falling asleep if I wrote everyone down. To all of you that have doubts or don't know - you know how significant you are to me.

 

CLASSIXZ - This Swedish cunt (I mean legend). Who knew one person could bring so much to the table. For years, this guy has been sticking alongside so many of us, and I'll always be glad that I was alongside him for the ride. I've learned many things for him, hated him, loved him, despised him, admired him. For (I hope) years to come, we're gonna keep on being annoying asses to one another, as that's something we are both experts at. But, in all seriousness, I truly cannot put into words how significant Classixz actually has been to me all this time, and I'm eternally grateful to him, for all that he's done. I, as I just said, am an expet in being an annoying ass, but that just makes it even more surprising how much Classixz has put up with me. Some of you might not know this, but when ZAM (UZM) first came out, I was perma-banned by Classixz. And I went from that, to this. Just looking back makes me laugh so much, that I really can't tell whether it should be funny or not, but I don't care. This beautiful individual has shown me such a good time for long, that it amazes me to an uncomprehendable level. Classixz, from the bottom of my heart, thank you, for all that you've done. Keep up with being amazing, don't let the stress from individuals overcome you, and keep up with your outstanding and unpredictable work (of art) that you do for all of us, over, and over.

 

INDY - Oh, little indy... Many of you will have different standpoints, and I will not mind that, but I got this guy into the core of UU. As he says it, he was just a random player of ZAM and had no goals or anything. Hell, he even asks me what I saw in him. I saw a hero. Something this community needed. Someone who is independent, strong, there when needed and fun and funny at all times. I may have gotten him to connect more to UU, but it's all on him what he did, and he deserves all the credit. Stay well, do great, conquer them all indy. <3

 

GRIGGZ0R - Massive troll, drunken fuck, clueless bastard, dickhead and - over-all - boss. To be honest, I can't remember anything from the NxT' times without looking at my CoD: BO1 screenshots folder, but this guy, he's one piece of art, I'll give you that. A person who's sole appearance on the ZAM servers already tells you that you're in for some good shit. From Cpt. Griggs, to Griggs, to Griggz0r (and plenty of others inbetween). Thank you for some epic times, tips, help and making some dark days be fun as fuck for me.

 

MYXA - British slut, and my love child. Beastly knifer, with an amazing level of tolerance towards idiots. Well, technically, we are both idiots, but that's on a whole different level. Not much more to say, other than what has already been said. Just like every surviving NxT' clan member, he has his own big meaning to me.

 

DEWSTY - Fag. Idiot. Moron. Whore. All in all, an epic individual who is funny as fuck and knows how to be down-to-earth when its' truly necessarry. We've put up with so much shit from one another, but we both remain where we are. Keep being awesome babe.

 

BRABY - This guy is like a bot that Classixz made to dominate when it comes to knifing. Even when he says: "I ain't that good.", everyone gets their ass whopped. Always down to earth, always a realist, never a jerk, never loses. Brilliant guy.

 

STLMOKEVIN - I don't even know. I mean, a wife, kids and he still has the time AND WILL to put up with a community loaded with ignorants and retards who would fail at a first grade math quiz. Well, I commend you, sir. A very dear friend, epic individual, eager to learn more day by day, and amazing to learn from. If UU ever puts up a wall of legends or something of that sort, Kevin better be in 1st place or I'll shoot someone, I swear. Also, don't mess with him, or his moustache will suck you up like a black hole and you'll never see the light of day (oh, the nightmares...).

 

VIIRUS_iQUICKZ - One of a kind. Known for his long forum posts and level of detail, but at least he gets his point accross. Especially unique when it comes to his TeamSpeak3 conversations. Stay awesome.

 

GREYHOUND - Devoted, I'll give you that. Always there when I needed him. Surely someone I can rely on. Really unique individual. Stay strong.

 

KIRITO / LANCER / ANONYMOUS - Pff, this little fag (jk). Always volountarily helped in ZAM testing and made many things possible. A great addition to the team. (l2snipe newb)

 

YUVALPRE - One of my great friends, who always had my back, whenever I needed him. Stuck with me for years and spent hours alongside me, playing anything we could think of together. Mr. YuvalPRO. :D

 

UVENUS - Stuck around with us for quite a long time now, and offered us some really fun times. Truly great friend, someone who stuck around with me for a long time.

 

DESTROYER - Shoots to kill (literally). Saw him get more feeds on ZAM alone than SwMt clan members all around. Had a great time helping him work on UU-S, and I still enjoy talking to him to this day. Keep up the great work. :)

 

ECHO - This fucker was epic. Sadly, he is no longer active. Saw him pull off some awesome stunts on ZAM. Wherever he is now, I wish him the best of luck in his future and I hope to see him on ZAM again. He rage-quit cuz he can't upvote his own posts anymore. :<

 

KICKARSE - Mr. CockArse. Me and MyXa still talk about him from time to time. Fagzor quit PC gaming for console. Regardless, we were awesome friends when we played ZAM back in the day. He was probably an even better knifer than MyXa, but that was back then. Hope to see his ass on PC some time. Epic dude.

 

KILL ORDER - Awesome guy. No longer plays CoD, but we had some great times on ZAM. Nothing that I can remember at the moment, but, trust me, he was fun to play with.

 

VECTOR - Sadly, he's no longer active, but he was one brilliant guy. Never backed down, always pointed out the facts, gave so many good ideas, and - what you may not have known - came up with the names Undead Uprising and Zombie Annihilation Mod. :)

 

WAST - An underrated person who gave me so much inspiration and will to just push through shit and always go for more. An amazing friend, glad to have stuck by him for years. Also, legit the best knifer there ever was on ZAM, so, there's another legen for all of you.

 

KING - One of my best gamer friends, and the person I've known for the longest time throughout my gamer years.

 

And, some final words:

 

I wanna go for more. I always do and I always will. So, I would like to run for Support staff. Indy has told me all about how it works and its' duties and I am ready to be a part of it to help out even more than ever, as long as Classixz and the others are okay with that. Why do I want this? Because I wanna take a load off of Classixz's neck, and call it a way of rewarding Classixz and the others for having put up with me for such a long time, and times to come. True, Classixz can always check all logs and judge the situation for himself, but I know that I can do more, and that's a fact that I do not need to prove.

 

And, let's end it with this:

 

I want to thank all of you, every single individual reading this, and many more, for sticking along with me, dealing with some of my shit, supporting me and offering reasonable solutions and compromised to many, many things, as well as being amazing friends. I have no remorse in joining this community, and it has a special place in my heart that means very much to me. Thank you, all of you, for everything. Stay strong, stay awesome, stay epic.

 

Aaand, here we are, 90 minutes of typing later.

 

Should I apply for UU (hint: I never did.)? :p

[░MyXa░]

lool

[Bt3dPwner]

Some good heart felt stuff in there

[Hunting]

well ZAM and this community needs dedicated people, so 'ye' :P

[GreyhounD<3]

Fuck u, i aint important im done

[stlmokevin]

I remember we first met during the planning of my first tournament. I didn't know very much about you, but you seemed very eager and helpful. In the time since the tournie, we've become great friends. I say friends and not "internet buddies" because I don't draw that distinction with you. You're always there when I have a question, and always quick with a useful suggestion. ZAM has brought me lots of joy, and not a little bit of frustration at times. Sharing those frustrations with a person who understands them all too well has made my time here that much more meaningful. 

[viirus_iquickz]

Fuck u, i aint important im done

 

Ramsy, I'm not sure what to say now. After reading this made me think about my parent's past and my past. My parents past seemed similar to yours. They (my parents) had so many friends to hang out with, played various games and sports with them (their friends), and a peaceful environment until the war happened. They then moved to America, learned everything that they needed to know in America and now my parents enjoy staying here. They wished that they could stay in Croatia and Bosnia just to fight for their countries which they didn't. I'm glad my parents made the right choice because I would of never been born if they stayed in either Croatia or Bosnia. My past is kind of similar with yours. I started out with no friends for a few years, and as I got older I started getting friends and we would always hang out at school and share great moments. I never hang out with friends after school as I'd rather be playing with my internet friends. I then started gaming around 2009 because my dad was a gamer back then and still is, and he wanted me to become one too. Now life is normal with my parents in America. They work, and they don't have to deal with any wars in America. I go to school, but I mainly spend my quality time in my room. Life for me rocks.

[░MyXa░]

I mean, i finished my popcorn before finishing to read this, but anyways; You were this guy that i first met on UZM (I Think on zem as well not sure) And like, i never really talked to you much, even when UZM came out, we used to play together and all, but never really talk. It started when zam actually became famous, i remember that voice chat with me, you, uvenus and some other guys, we were playing that uu mc server orsmth. From then we started to be really good friends. 10/10 recommend dis kiddo ramsaey

[Griggs]

1337 gg wp, nice having u so long and will be even longer :d 

 

also i agree with dusty, couldent have said the stuff u typed about cpt.griggs better myself :D

 

 

 

 

2 daniel

[BIGz]

"applies  for UU " Gets rejected 

[Ramsy]

Included more people in my original post. Check it out.

[Quadah]

lol

[Yuvalpre]

Wow... that was really amazing, and you still call me YuvalPRO? xD, man, you are the best, you helped me a lot on ZAM and on any other games that we played.

 

Ramsy for the Hall of Fame!!!!

 

Thanks for reading this

 

Yuvalpre ( not YuvalPRO )

[Wast]

Was very fun to play with you / work with you on the knifetage.

Wish you the best, i know you gonna go far !

[Kill Order]

*wipes single glistning tear away* That. Was. Beautiful. I think that you are UU Ramsey and should not have to apply :P

 

 

 

I also am getting my laptop in febuary SO I WILL BE BACK MOTHER FUCKERS! YOU THOUGHT YOU SAW THE LAST OF ME, BUT YOU DIDN"T! YOU GET ME FOR LONGER! MWAAAAAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

[aShamed]

Nah indy, one of Axrill's posts had like 20 dislikeds

[aShamed]

Or a post from i love indy: http://undeaduprising.net/new/index.php?/topic/3621-fuck-you-guys/

 

this one has a scrollbar too

[The One Patriot]

It is always been a pleasure knifing with you Rams. I am truelove very sad to know that you are leaving this community. However I do understand that life is tuff and it is full of hard decisions. I know how it feels when you can't say that you will leave, believe me I do. I hope that you still come and play ZAM with us every once in a while. Take a break, have some fun, feel the chill, and again have a lot of fun ramsy!! Have happy life man! It was a pleasure knowing you, Rams.

[Bluebird]

Kev rap god

i laughed so bad at this it woke up my parents xD